hollyjollychristmas’ blog

      Where do we find the border between an interest in safety and a violation of privacy.  Lately, I've felt like people just run into my situations and conduct searches on hunches, and I personally feel that this is unacceptable.  People are welcome to search if they have evidence besides an opinion supporting a theory (of which there has never been in my case).  Meanwhile, people suffer the indignity of the suddle insults incorporated into these investigations.  The way these searches are conducted seems exessive and more to make a point about power then to actually uncover anything about a specific topic.

      This last paragraph may sound a bit suspicous, but if you think about it, that's really where all this starts.  It all comes back to people thinking they know better than you about what should and shouldn't be allowed and what is ethical.  The worst thing is when said people try to be sneaky about it and pretend to just be acting friendly.  Of course, anyone smart enough not to have been doing anything compromising knows that this is all an act, and either lets them carry on because they have nothing to hide, or protests in the interest of what is right no matter what the potential social consequences.

     People occasionally seek approval, so it can seem good to know after searches etc. that we are not doing anything wrong, however, a feeling of praise cannot substitute for human dignity, and those who feel it necessary to glorify good results of searches etc. know this most of all.  This whole scenario actually reminds me of the song, "Loves Me Like A Rock" where Paul Simon says, "Now who do, who do you think you're foolin'?" because the people who do nothing wrong are seldom fooled by those trying to violate their privacy.

Yours Always,

Sofia-Ma. Passik.

     So for school I just read Art Spiegelman's Maus books, they are very good, but sometimes they get sad, and you want to stop reading them but you can't, you decide you shouldn't be so selfish, some people actually went through all that, and the least you can do is read it.  The father's accent is so funny, like many of my parent's friends.  I love speaking Yiddish, and it's nice to read in.  That's really all for now.

Yours.

      Everyone has to graduate from something some day, this year, a class is graduating, and I know a lot of the people in it, and I'm going to miss them.  Sometimes it can be very difficult to take graduation, everyone leaving, going on to something else, being something or someone else, changing.  Everything is going to be different next school year.  Sometimes it's difficult to just let time go by so quickly when you know that you will never have the same moment as you have right now, you will never be under the same circumstances.  Everyone has to change, but sometimes it seems like even the most sudden change can put a kink in a life that goes by so fast.  Sometimes I want to just push pause and try something differently, but I know I don't have time.  I have to keep going, I have to stop thinking that everything is just going to change over night.  It's something like the situation of the boy in "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coehlo, he has to wait to make enough money to go off and achieve his "personal legend".  Seems to me like I might have to wait around and work hard for a while until I get my personal legend.

     I'm not saying that you shouldn't go after your dreams, but some times dreams require a little more work than just wishing.  Just waiting.  Just wanting.  I'll tell you more about graduation later, don't worry.

Yours Always,

HollyJollyChristmas the Corgi.

     Just behind me is a group of people trying to fit as many people as possible on one chair. The day is almost over, it's our second to last class, and everyone is sick of being at school already.  On the plus side, this class is pretty fun.  Currently, I can't even tell how many people are on that chair.  That poor chair.  Nobody trusts anybody really in our class and I don't blame them.  Well, anyway, nick 1 now has dread locks, and is currently trying to poke M2.  Back to the whole trust thing, I like how people don't have to tell each other everything, but they shouldn't have to trample all over eachother to find something out, they should just accept that they don't have to be told.

    Bartering with secrets in immature, this tactic has caused many an international incident.  Not that I have an exact strategy about how those situations could be handled better.  However, that is a form of black mail, which is, at least immoral and at most illegal.

    I wanted to thank all of you for your support, I now have comments on sights I haven't even really ever seen before I found out about the fans, and now I'm glad to say I like them all.  Keep those votes, recommendations, and responses going!.

Yours Always,

Holly Jolly Christmas the Corgi.

     Something that happened today made me think of the song "Mad World" by Gary Joules.  When I hear about all of the things people accomplish and how ready people are too call unspeakably far without any guilt whatsoever, I feel like those are the people who can take on the world.  I wonder what I think I'm doing in a world where there are such people, I couldn't do those things, at least, I don't think I could.  It's not like just because today I discovered that despite all of my denial and trying of new things, I am in fact, a nebbish (the yiddish word for wimp, wuss, geek, or nerd) I'm going to go out and completely change everything about myself.  I just, sometimes feel like I want to only get in up to my knees, and these other, successful, well liked people are already deep under water.

      Everyone is just trying to figure themselves out, but some people can just decide that they know exactly who they are and never look back.  I mean, I know what I stand for on most things, but it's difficult to take a stand on something the first thing after you hear about it, I want my opinions to be well informed and insightful, not just what I think at first glance.  Well, when people run in circles it's a v. v. mad world.

Yours Always,

Holly Jolly Christmas the Corgi.

So Friday night I had a party at school for the graduating class.  It was actually pretty fun, and a few of my friends were there, which was good.  Then yesterday I had my friend's birthday party, which was fun and v. eventful.  Today I had a special dinner for my skating club, where they also have the annual board organizing meeting, which means we take lots of pictures while the board and other supervising people talk about what is in store for the new club season.  Skating if full of endings and beginnings, as the club season ends, the summer skating school season begins.  It makes me feel like time goes by so fast when we have these ending and beginnings in our calendar, it makes me feel like every second I spend bored is a waste of the time I will never see again.  It will never be the same second of the same day of the same year ever again, and I have to say that sometimes this makes life seems so fleeting.  Then I remind myself that there are lots of other land marks that haven't passed by yet, and they are there waiting for me, and I will get to them if I just get through a few seconds of a few days of a few years.  Eventually, it will seem like those seconds couldn't have been different for me to be where I am.  After all, time does heal all wounds.

Yours always,

Holly Jolly Christmas the Corgi.

1. Finish current study guide, and do other study guide.

2. Correct work, type, and turn back in.

3. Science project.

4. Type end of essay, type bibliography.

5. Finish reading history packet.

6. Finish reading science chapter.

7. Study vocabulary.

1-5 are supposed to each take about an hour, but I'm going to try and get them all done in about one hour, so much for mother's day if I can't.

Yours Always,

HJCtC.

Today is earth day, today also, religous Jews, even if they are half Jewish like me, are not eating bread or grains because of Passover.  Now that I think about it, Passover really makes you think about what all you eat, and earth day makes us concious of the world around us.  Both holidays bare with them a sense of conciousness that usually goes unnoticed .  So happy earth day, happy passover.  There's just something to ponder.

Sry. I haven't been on here in so long.  Anyway, here's what's been happening around school and skating.

So, M2 had some problems with hair and an orange (think explosion).

E is going with me too a KT Tunstall concert, woohooo!.

Y is enjoying a wierd drawing game on the computer where he is getting slaughtered, and experimenting with new names.

R is playing tricks on her mind with lots of optical illusions.

D is playing the same drawing games as Y, I'll have to ask him if he did well.

I've been making lots of videos on ustream so I'll have to give you guys the link.

Yours Always,

HollyJollychristmas the Corgi.

I'm listening to "Fools Like Me" by Vanessa Carlton.  I was thinking about how sometimes when we end a relationship, we feel like the other person is a fool, and they think the same of us.  Then finally the two people realize what a foolish thing they broke up over and realize that they were a fool for ending it, and then they both get back together.  But, I have a question, according to their previous feelings, aren't they both fools for getting back together with the fool they broke up with? 

      There is a moral to this rant,  that being, if someone is willing to degrade their self esteem, atleast, give them a try?  So I find myself upholding the principle that if fools fall in love, and there is someone for everyone, then we are obviously all atleast a little foolish.  Just like Vanessa Carlton, I'll pick the fool any day.

Yours Always,

HollyJollyChristmas the Corgi.